Guys, don't get into drugs just because any black metal idiots have glamorized it.
Look, all levity aside, I really don't promote or condone drug addiction, and I won't make any grand visual video statements about it. The 'Benzo' shorthand is in the spirit of irony and subtle cynicism, but I'm not trying to exploit my own personal interests to make anyone care. I've written my fair share of music on the subject, but I try to approach this topic subtly, for the most part.
I read somewhere that someone was actually intending to try smack for the first time after watching the new Shining music video. If you're actually trying heroin for the first time to validate your little 'depression', you are fucking stupid and you might as well convert to Christianity, because you are a pathetic follower. Believe me, this type of addiction will validate your depression for sure, but unless you really plan on suicide, it will crush you.
The black metal glamorization omits the more realistic aspects of what this is really like, how it pretty much damages and likely destroys your finances, your romantic relationships, your relationships with family, your job, and even the boredom and unfulfillingness of it all. Where is that in the video? Yeah, I'm guilty of the casual references to it, and so I feel I should own up to it by writing this, because it's best that the message comes from a source of experience. It's depressing in a way that is more than most people can bear.
I'm tired of black metal taking on this drug culture identity, because its most often shallow and insincere. I like my fans and I'm sorry this is not 'omg shocking and fucked up' but I don't want any of you guys to go through what I do. I have to take the road less traveled and give you guys the truth. Music should inspire you and make you think, not contribute to the destruction of your existence. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with enjoying drug related music, Alice in Chains is even one of my favorite bands and THAT is a guy that really suffered hardcore over this shit, and he's admitted in interviews what a mistake it was to go down that road.
Withdrawal is not glamorous, and I would like to hear a Shining track about that shit. Feeling hopelessly sick and longing for that smack when its gone and you're broke and lonely, why put yourself through that? No matter what your reason is, everyone that starts this path cannot just go back and undo it, its for life and you'll enjoy hours upon dreadful hours with nothing but the realization that you have only yourself to blame.
Its not grim, its not nihilistic, its just unforgiving as it robs you of anything. Fucking music videos about this shit are an insult to those that have reaaly lived this, but that is just what I think.
Do yourself a fucking favor and look past this facade of 'extremity' and see this all for what it really is; a fucking joke, a fucking lie, and anyone that isn't disgusted with you is laughing AT you.
Be yourself, not a tool for someone's popularity, even mine.